I need to bring an end to the things that are causing me pain

to the things that make me sad

to to things that are no longer enriching my life

at one point tumblr was a source of joy and inspiration for me

it was a place of potential and fun

but more often than not these days I find myself looking at distant places and beautiful faces and wishing I were exploring their contours rather than sitting, hunch-back increasing, time ticking away from all productivity.

so this is the end of one chapter in my book

and I hope that because of this choice I will be opening pages and starting new stories

continuing my adventure of life

I know many of you have heard my voice and shared things with me here and for that and the friendships that have blossomed, I am grateful.

if we’ve never spoke, I’m sorry. I hope you have a beautiful day and that this doesn’t make you sad

I’m not sad. I’m hoping this will make me the opposite.

this is not a way of saying, “woe-is-me”

this is continuation and expansion

dedication to the betterment of my life. 

I love you

hobey ho, let’s go.

i quit

i’m making this hard

‘stead of throwin myself around

here i stand 

solid ground.

sometimes i forget to breathe

and so i like to remind myself 

that it is necessary and important

for being the very the best

like no one ever was

and i know that sadness can consume

but why should it 

when porn stars are listening to my words

and my best friends walk me 

half way home

it’s a sloppy mess i have become and in the morning

further consideration will ensue.